If I could go back in time and tell my 2020 self what I’d be doing today, she’d say “yeah right.” And she’d shrug it off as impossible while fighting back tears. Because she’d know deep down that my my life today was her wildest dreams. My four years ago self didn’t have the courage to break free of the chains that bound her. She desperately wanted to start completely over but didn’t know how to begin. She was a prisoner.

The who I am today is more incredible….more amazing..more WOW…more yummy…more confident…more beautiful…more YES….more YES….more YESSSS than I ever imagined possible. If I could tell my four years ago self who I would be today…she’d cry tears of joy, knowing deep down, that it was true.

I’m a yogi. Officially. I practice in the front row of classes. I know the names of asanas. I have good breath control and my flexibility is improving. I know that I can go to any yoga class, anywhere in the world, without fear or worry. I know what to do. My body knows what to do. I love it so much.

I’m a vegan. Not a sometimes vegan or a sort of vegan but I eat this or that. But a full fledged vegan. Proudly so! I love knowing that nothing has to be harmed or killed or hurt so that I can eat. I love knowing that I don’t contribute to the further decay of this beautiful planet due to my consumption of animals (I.e., forests being chopped down for cattle ranches in Brazil)

I’m a beach bum hippie. I love living on beaches. I love my wild, untamed curly hair. My hair is cooler now than it’s ever been and I style it with yoga sweat, coconut oil, salt water, and wind. I have a super deep, natural suntan and year round tan lines. My skin looks amazing with a golden bronze glow. I love long walks on the beach and dancing to myself to whatever music is in my headphones. I love when onlookers see me and think “that woman doesn’t give a fuck what anyone thinks about her. She’s living her best life.” YES, I AM.

I’ve been living in Bali. And Thailand. When I write this I almost can’t believe the words are real. I feel like I need to say this again. For the past 6 continuous months I’ve called Bali home. I live in Bali! Soon, because it’s monsoon season I’ll be leaving for Byron Bay, Australia. I’m in disbelief! This blows me away. The past two years I’ve lived in Thailand, Bali and Israel. I’ve traveled extensively in Cambodia and India. I’ve visited Vietnam, Laos, Jordan, Dubai. Living someplace; I can walk around without a map. I have regular cafes/restaurants and people who know me by name. I have other friends who live there. I’m a regular at places, events. I have a community. Traveling extensively; many of the things from the living someplace list, but not all. Visiting someplace; I’ve explored and enjoyed but haven’t spent enough time to make it home.

I practice AHIMSA in every moment and every breath of my life. This is is the Sanskrit word for a Buddhist and Hindu practice of doing no harm. No harm to others. Living from constant place of love and kindness. No harm to animals or living creatures. No harm to the planet. Reducing carbon footprint / picking up garbage / walking more / not consuming harmful crops (like almonds)

I love freely and without expectation. I’m seriously a lover girl. I feel no shame around loving others. I love loving others and being loved by others.

I never get mad or angry. I haven’t yelled since leaving my marriage. I never raise my voice. I’m a consistent level of balanced.

I have a healthy and balanced relationship with alcohol and drugs. Some days I drink, other times I go months on end without a sip of alcohol. Some days I take LSD or Mushrooms, other days I’m drug free for months.

I’m BRAVE. There’s nothing that I’m scared of. Try me.

I’m a dancer. I love dancing. I love music. I love dancing with others.